Bed time #2
Happy March 6th! Today after having a hellish ordeal with antibiotics and being in and out of the bathroom for a couple hours, I had a complete cry fest. What’s new? Luckily one of my co workers spilled the beans about me being promoted, and that turned my frown upside down. I am super pumped for my new position! Wowza. What a day! I’m not nearly as sad as I was yesterday, sure I...
Bed time #1
5 March2013 I worked my first time on the night shift. March has been a rough month for me since 2011. Losing someone to suicide felt like my heart was breaking. For anyone who hasn’t gone through it, I pray you never have to. It’s March. I didn’t realize that March would be so rough. Other people have been...
“if you’d accept surrender I’ll give up some more weren’t you adored I cannot be without you matter of fact I’m on your back”
Oh hey there red flag… Are you telling me to stop? Oh hey red flag
“i’m an invisible disaster i keep trying to walk but my feet don’t find the solid ground it’s like living in a bad dream i keep trying to scream but my tongue has finally lost its sound I’ve got to say goodbye to the pieces of me that have already died i’m a ghost haunting these halls climbing these walls that i never knew were there and i’m lost...
As the Sparrow
To give life you must take life, and as our grief falls flat and hollow upon the billion-blooded sea I pass upon serious inward-breaking shoals rimmed with white-legged, white-bellied rotting creatures lengthily dead and rioting against surrounding scenes. Dear child, I only did to you what the sparrow did to you; I am old when it is fashionable to be young; I cry when it is fashionable to laugh....
“Laugh when you can, apologize when you should, and let go of what you can’t change.”
I brought down the sky for you but all you did was...
There are times when life is so unbearable, that everything you think was right turned out to be wrong, and everything starts crumbling. You start running to your friends, and all they do is sit around and wait for you to start crying because they know your hurting. You sit and watch them and think hey if i act like them, I will feel better too. So it becomes a habit, you sit, you watch, you do....
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You’re on the west coast and then only thing I see when I look to the west are purple mountains. No ocean, no you. No emerald eyes staring back at me, no smile as you sleep, just memories. I don’t want to have to do this, but I need to let go. I have been down this road, driving to the bar to pick him up listening to the slurred words, and pretending not to feel my heart sink in...
driving the painful route to go to the gas station hoping I won’t see you driving home. I wait by the four way stop and stare blankly at your kitchen light, hoping I won’t see your silhouette. If I saw you now I wouldn’t know what to do. I would just close my eyes and hope to disappear. I would hope I wouldn’t remember your hands and how you could just pick me up like I was...
What I had was good, what I had was pure. If you only knew what was racing through my heart, if you only knew what was racing through my mind. When I tell you the truth you will forget, like the words being sung into your ears. When you can hear the melody in my smile, of me loving you, you will see it was me all a long. you’re the bad luck you warned me about, you just can’t see...